“The Boy at the Gate” memoir is a poignant song

DSCN3993At the age of eight, Danny Ellis was separated from his siblings and dropped off at the most notorious orphanage in Ireland. The Artane Industrial School housed 800 orphans and delinquents that nobody wanted—a noisy, ragtag bunch of “humanity’s lost children.” His ma said, “I’ll be back for you at Christmas.” He saw her briefly one more time, and then never again.

I saw Danny Ellis perform part of his memoir the other night. He’s a singer-songwriter, invited to open for Bonnie Raitt last spring. He’s got a gently scuffed voice that goes well with the sweetness of his guitar playing. Ah, and that Irish brogue is the cream on top. Danny has been touring the country telling a touching story of his rough upbringing, singing his way to healing. If he comes to your area, be sure to see him.

Danny came out of the orphanage at age 16 trained to be a cobbler, but music was his calling and soon he was happily making a career of it. He pushed his childhood to the side, “focusing on other things rather than on why my ma left me.” His younger sisters later found him and had to “insert themselves” into his life because he didn’t want be reminded of his abandonment. Late one night many years later, while unwinding at home after a gig, the notes of his past began to flow through his guitar and he realized “there was a part of me still left in the orphanage.” His CD 800 Voices is the tuneful poetry of that part. His memoir, The Boy at the Gate, is the poetic prose. The beautiful, sensitive writing in an online excerpt of the book drove me to go to Danny’s event, which turned out to be well worth the fight against Cardinal Nation traffic heading home after a game 2 NLCS win.

The Boy at the Gate is not all sad sack. Reading to page 44 and skimming through the rest, it is mostly an introspective and often amusing look at bad times and colorful characters. Ellis was born in Dublin, a city he says was full of interesting and humorous people. “Poverty creates characters … Everyone in Dublin was a thespian. Nothing was ever what it seemed.” Of his rough childhood Ellis said, “A kid thinks his life is like other people’s. Even if bad things happen in the morning, something good can happen in the evening. You make the best of it.” He said he never had the energy needed to be hateful or vindictive. “Life is very beautiful despite how bad it can be. We would look for beauty anywhere—in friendships, little animals, bugs.” He writes about a tough boxer who would “sing as if to save his life while saving my life, too.” When Tommy, the fighter, turned 16 and left the orphanage, Ellis knew it was his turn to sing to save his own life. And he did.

The book is written in present tense, transporting us to the rough city streets of 1950s Ireland and refusing to let us go. The prologue alone is gripping, the writing evocative. A soul-satisfying epilogue and an overview of the orphanage’s history end the book. I asked Danny about his beautiful writing style and he explained that the brevity and emotion involved in songwriting lent itself well to writing his memoir. A well-known ghostwriter actually refused the job of writing for him after reading draft pages because they were so well-written. Danny is thinking of writing a second memoir about exploring who he really is. He knows his persona has been shaped by what’s happened to him, so who is he underneath all that? I don’t know, but he sure seemed like a nice guy to me.

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Drifting away from your roots

Fall is in the air, my favorite time of year! Except I’m not so happy. Today is my mother’s birthday and she’s no longer with us. As the leaves begin to turn my thoughts turn to my mother’s last days. She became ill a few weeks after her birthday last year and did not recover, passing into another existence days before Thanksgiving. With her passed a big piece of my life and a piece of my heritage.

I have enjoyed celebrating my Japanese roots ever since we moved to this area and found a good-sized group of Japanese-heritage people. There’s even a big festival and a big Japanese garden! I’d be happy to celebrate my Dutch heritage, too, but I don’t know anything about it. My dad’s family didn’t do anything particularly Dutch – except go to a strict Dutch church – even though they were immigrants. The Dutch heritage was absorbed into American-ness by the first generation.

Since I’m being melancholy missing my mom, I have been wondering how fast our Japanese heritage will disappear. One daughter looks entirely Caucasian and will probably marry a Caucasian man. She has some interest in things Japanese, particularly in Hello Kitty and Totoro and certain foods (she can make tempura). Will her children (if she has any) be interested in the one-eighth Japanese heritage hiding inside them? Will my daughter sing the Shojoji song to her kids? Will she take pictures of her white toddlers in hand-me-down kimonos and feed them rice with seaweed sprinkles? We’ll see. This daughter may relate more to her daddy’s Southern family in the Tennessee countryside, but she is very much an American Midwestern city girl.

My other daughter does look like she has Asian heritage and has some interest in things Japanese, but about as much as her sister. She did try to learn Japanese with me one summer with a private tutor, but quit in frustration (I didn’t last much longer). Recently, though, she surprised me by saying she wanted to teach English in Japan and maybe live there for a while because “It’s not that interesting here.” We’ll see. She was referring to culture in her statement. American culture can seem rather bland compared to old cultures with colorful customs and traditions and thousand-year-old buildings.

If my younger daughter follows through with her plans (she’s only in high school), then the Japanese heritage might live on. I’m not holding my breath. I will be sad to see the richness of that heritage wash away, but I may not be around long enough to see. No matter what, my mother and I will smile down upon our future generations from behind a veil, our whispers blending in with the wind, knowing there is a book that tells our story.

A few yellow leaves
Drifting from the locust tree
Reminding me
My mother left this earth
When the maples burned red

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Canton Elegy: Astonishing memoir of Chinese history and a father’s love

Canton ElegyRecently I finished reading an advance copy of Canton Elegy by Stephen Jin Nom Lee. It is one of the most beautiful memoirs I’ve ever read, and I’ve read a LOT of memoirs. I wrote about Canton Elegy in April 2012 when I saw an article about how the handwritten, English-second-language pages were kept in an attic, waiting long after Lee’s death until . . . a grand-daughter and her writer-husband from overseas came to visit. Howard Webster was enthralled with what he read and the resulting book will be released this week.

Well, I was enthralled, too. Stephen Lee wrote a long letter for his children—the story of his life until his firstborn child graduated high school and left for the U.S., the rest of the family soon to follow. He wanted them to know what he and his wife had gone through and to “speak to, comfort and inspire my children, grandchildren and their children in a time when my name is just a memory carved in a tablet of stone on a grassy hillside.” Mostly he wanted his children to know how much he loved them, and his love shines through like a star in the night of his story. He died in 1970, Howard Webster was given the manuscript to read in early 2012.

Jin Nom Lee was born in China in 1902 and his father died soon after. At age six, Lee’s grandfather took him away from his mother to be educated in the U.S. Despite a college degree from Berkeley, Stephen Lee could find no job but menial work and so returned to China. Racism was rampant in the U.S. then. In China he was a successful banker with a civilian job with the Cantonese Air Force, a dangerous association as communist forces sought to overthrow the government. Civil wars were interrupted by WWII and the Japanese invasion and continued afterwards until Chinese communists took over. So much danger in this book! Lee’s wife fled the Japanese army in a harrowing 300-mile journey on foot with four young children to reach her husband sent to open a new bank branch in a safer location. Enemy soldiers, starvation, killing floods, and vicious Red Guards keep the story riveting, but the prose is eloquent and often poetic, sincere and hopeful. Many times I paused to take in what had happened, or paused to soak in the beauty of the words and the wisdom for the generations.

Every child should be so lucky to receive a gift of story and life learnings from a parent! Stephen Lee speaks to his children from the beyond. How wonderful for them to know their father, though he worked long hours and may not have been forthcoming with words, loved them deeply . . .

“That’s why this manuscript is important. I want it to be a gentle golden thread of memory to connect us, to remind you that you, my children, were, and always will be, loved. The love I have for you is a single thread of shimmering, unbreakable certainty.”

I am thankful that Howard Webster knew how to get Stephen Lee’s words published. Read this book! Its words will pierce your heart and live in your mind.

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